Welcome 08 and Goodbye 07

Life ends when we stop dreaming , Hope ends when we stop believing...these quote has been inspiring me all this year. 07 has not been a good year to me, up and down ..lotsa tears this year. Started with moving from kuching to Miri..brings with me , my good memories with all love ones in kuching ...especially with crazy hulk friends like Lola, Woggie Bear, Uncle down2, Sot, Dean the bald man.... Hard for me to start everything like in KCH...no friends, no relatives and no good place to hang out. Huh...but life must go on...and I manage to hold on to my dream..Many words and ppl around me, demotivate me with my dream. Maybe they are not from the same link..created to look down on ppl, proud of themselves but lasted with nothing....( No say from me...huhu)..but there are few stars blinking around me to hold my hand when im down and to inspire me with their words of wisdom....and this final month of 07, I can see the stars are shining through me and it will be brighter than the sun...
To welcome 08 with smiles on my face and blessed from Him..

Look alike?????

This month me and keith got ourselves a new haircut..and suddenly , my hubby said we really look alike ...hehe, dont you think so too????

Jen's fav t shirt

This is Jen's fav t shirt....I promise to upload this pic , but due to my busy schedule..terpaksa la delay. heheh, this pic taken during her trip to Miri. I brought her 'Jalan-jalan' in Miri ..and we laugh sampai mengalirkan air mata ..wakkaa, when we bumped into this t shirt...."Enggai Tumu Janda" ahaks...I bet ppl who design this shirt really gilar2 punya orang...There are many more shirts like this and its soo........damn funny if i upload all here. I save it for the next blog....Enjoy this Jen...I will get one for ur xmas gift.

Cant wait to see u here this weekend...

Christmas......

hai..20 days to christmas day...here are few photos taken to bring the christmas mood. My lil Keith been so busy posing at every christmas tree he saw in all shopping mall in miri...I have the mood for christmas every time I go shopping mall in Miri....Enjoy the pictures...Ho..ho..ho..

Imperial Hotel

1st christmas tree

2nd xmas tree

oooh...thats santa

no choice Daddy Vis have to take part..

3rd Xmas tree

4th xmas tree

stay awake.....more xmas tree...

this is what a mother like me will have to go thru...this is just the third year....next year...aduh, more xmas gifts to prepare....till then, enjoy your xmas..I be in Kuching for xmas...yahoo...cant wait to meet all love ones there....

New Pet for Keith...

hola....see that...ermm, my wet kitchen jadi Rejang Medical....and as i told ngeng kiki in Kch, she asked me.."mayau datai ka ?" of coz..takkan i send invitation card to the Indai Mayau to beranak there in tat box full with hammer, playar...etc. hehe, cute huh? 4 of them, 3 with same color ..and see that, one of them got 3 color black, orange and white...well, not to say i hate cat but i malas want to jaga them..dont mind to give them foods, but their shits....arggghh!!!! but still, i think they are cute in that box..im still thinking of keeping them but outside my house of coz...i will think of wat to named them..maybe lola, kiki, ngeng...and kuning..ermmm nice huh???sempena september ini.....

weekend for keith...

Hai..aduh boring gilar my weekend, wanted to go out and bring keith to the swimming pool but it was raining. Cancelled plan to swimming pool, then we went out to town..saja jalan2 cari makan. but bored oso jalan musim ujan tok...luckily i brought with me my camera and took some nice picture of keith..here are some!!!!

keith with his nice smile...

KFC please....

makan mee kolok ja la..hehhee!!!

can i wait here while u go to church mummy????

mummy, im tired can i sleep here...??
New style ..to drink your milk..ala2 ngirup liquor..wakkakak..

Time to sleep....Gdnite baby!

these are the things that my lil keith do every weekend....aksi2 lucu, minta simpati and menyakitkan hati..but still, mummy loves you darling..May you grow up and be a better person in the future, ...

what i really miss in Kuching.....

I really miss kuching..do not know y i cant adapt myself in Miri, everything seem not rite here. No friends to hang out with.....place like no other..???PG kuching, how i miss it ....i miss my frens,especially Kiki the durex..hehhee, ( ask her y i call her durex) ..we used to hang out after works, drinks..laugh...and sometime cry together..I have to thanked her for every mins she spent with me, coz without her i think i be bored there in kuching without my hubby for almost a year...thanks kiki. Not forgetting, Jimmy the uncle down2...(y i kol him that?) haha, ask him y. he is a nice guy, good to hear that he is finally found someone who really care for him and i can see he is smiling now..these ladies up here, my good friends since we were in uitm...helen, doy and toy...enjoying my time with them for more than 5 years together. and until now..we still contact each other. And all of us here, all dah jadi mummy....except for our sexy doy there..she is in KL..anyone?? hehe...
here, caroline aka gendut...i called her gendut and keith called her aunty gendut...she is my best fren..been closed as sister with her since 97 til now.miss her a lot now. she is now in Kl..doing her degree and i got the feeling maybe she wil stay there for good..errmmm, miss you gendut...wen she laugh u will remember it forever...thats the best about her, so when she dont laugh u can notice that she is down..its a nice thing to know such a nice person like her..
cik melissa...she is now in Kl , miss her too,...we used to go makan2 coz last time both of us are jobless for quite sometime, she can drive so she used to be my driver,..we jalan2 in town meet indu ngeng at lunch time...but now she is slimmer than me, i dont know how she did that..but she is a great company..
I miss my friends,..sot , luke and dean...i miss them all, im looking foward to go back kuching...soon, so that i can meet them all..God willings, i will!!!!
Lastly, I miss Sue...used to talk to her everyday and laugh at all things...whatever it is, i hope she knows that I miss her,...Please take care of yourself k, thanks for evrything.



these are the ppl that i really miss..

When its too much....

Hola, i need to share this with you. The words too much can bring your anger??? sometimes too much can brings smiles on your face..and too much jokes brings laughter..but what i want to share here is ..too much words ..sometimes , we dont know that our frens or even relatives can make us mad...grrrrrr!!!!!

I am the kinda of person who do not really bother to find problems with someone what more to say to my own loved ones...including family, cousin, in laws and whoever thought that they are in this group..hehehe. I dont understand y people really bother to hurt someone feeling when they know that they are not supposed to do that..Y? because we are in the same group..for me money is not everything, and the world is fair. today you are on top of everything, one day you will be down to the ground...so, for people who think that they are better than anyone else....well, just keep it to yourself and if you really are, someone will come to you and say...hey, you are the best!!! we never judge someone by its cover, we are not allow to look down to others...Sometimes for me, being the bad ones is better than being good...

I just dont think its fair for you to say things too much about others. Because we do not know what will God planned for her or him. She mite be on top of all of us..Just be yourself and and enjoy the world while you can..coz each one of us have our own plan from God. N God is the one who judge us all not we human being..if you have wealth more than others, then put in God's hands...and be blessed if you help others..Am i rite???

Till then, for those who think that they earn more than anyone else...Be it!!!!!!!

Hola Ladies, Chow!!!!!

Love Will Keeps Us Alive..

Love..means so much to me and m sure , to many more out there. Love can be shared between lovers, friends and family. Even God wants us to love our enemies. So, no limit for love in this world....

I was 21 when i first met my hubby, that was when i studied in UiTM. its funny how we met and I will keep it as a memory for us and our children. Very funny how we met and somehow it also can be called sweet...coz not many have love story like us.

Love will keep us alive..that song by Eagle is one of our fav song last time and til now. everytime we listen to this song played on the air, we will smile to each other and how i wish the dj can play the song every hour ..not every mins, i get bored la if they play it by mins. hehhe...That song that makes me fall in love with him. He is such a nice guy that time. So simple and caring , that makes me feel that he is the rite one for me....

Babe, We started over a drinks and became friends..not long later, we became closer than friends..We learned how to love each other until Mac 2003, we decided to announce our engagement in Sibu. Was a very memorable moment..where everyone who came to our engagement dinner was happy and enjoying themselves..I remember that nite, after the dinner me, vis , few friends from kuching and cousins in sibu went to one of the pub in Sibu. We were enjoying ourselves there...and I was walking bare footed to that place and unluckily I lost my purse ...huhu, u know wat happen the next day....start la , my mum ...bla ..bla..bla..

2003 , brings triple happiness...we engaged in March. and our big day was in December 13, 2003. Actually we wanted to choose, 12 Dec ..becoz that was our annivesary for our relationship...121298, is the day i met him personally. He is not superman, but I will love him the best I can...After a month , I found out that I have mu Lil Keith..So happy was i and my hubby...finally, after years we became family ....with keith around that, showed Love really keep us alive..

Now...2007, our family moved to miri...tho' many problems that we face..me and hubby, still goin on strong..to love and to care for each other endlessly...I hope this year brings better luck to us, babe! I just want to have my whole lifetime with you and our lil keith and maybe another one soon..hehhe, God willings.


"Love Will Keep Us Alive"

keith and Babeng.....

hey baby, its ur birthday soon....well, this picture is not his birthday...but he tried to conquer the cake. errmm, kesian babai keith. It was his Babai's birthday. Tho' it was a really late entry for that..but I still want blog on it. This picture really a sweet memory that Keith's keep for his Babai..He really misses his Babai so much and , I really hope to bring him to see his Babai soon. Maybe, after his birthday. Well, Keith and my father in law has a lots in common. They like music, same round shape of their face, same interest in "bertukang." and becoz of him my Keith knows how to speak Bidayuh. I do not want him to turn up to be Bidayuh but do not know how to speaks Bidayuh..ermm, sounds so bad rite?? Many things im sure Keith would want to thanked his Babai...He has been helping me and my hubby a lot. Im sure if Keith knows how to say out his appreciation..He would say " Thank you for helping my parent"...This blog is specially for you dad...and from all of us here in Miri...and this song down here, reminds us of you dad!!!



I found my thrill ......
on blueberry hill
On blueberry hill ......
when I found you
The moon stood still ......
on blueberry hill
And lingered until ......
my dreams came true

(the wind in the willow played.......
love's sweet melody
But all of those vows we made......
were never to be)

Though we're apart......
you're part of me still
For you were my thrill......
on blueberry hill



**** to be continued.....

My Precious Gift.....

My Lil Keith Henrique Gani..one more week from now , 9 aug Keith is 3 yrs old...my one and only son and really love music , has same interest with his dad..Hey, baby ..mummy love you so much...

My beloved hubby, Jarvis...his name so simple ..hehe, but he is simple man. Very easy to understand, nice man, quiet and committed to work. Im so lucky i meet him, coz he is so understanding and soft spoken..lucky me???coz different with me, im a outspoken person..sometimes very loud, depends on who i am talkin to..but most of the time you will love me ..hehhe, and thats y my hubby loves me very much..
see that lady up there, thats my superwoman and my cute nephew Ian Carlson..and my mum, her name is Evelyn Holly Sebom..ppl called her"indai Lix" iban is like that, they will called her by her eldest son or daugher's name..tho' they called her "indai lix" but she has 7 children all together..but name only belongs to one child only..fuhh....nvm bout that. Okay , thats my mum la ..i love her so much. She is my inspiration. She is not a full time housewife..She is a full time leader..She has been active with women christian fellowship. She was a president before and she did well on her job..At the same time, she is also a "counsellor" to SRDC..My mum is a mother with so much love to her children. She always there to help us go through every difficulties that we shared with her. Never did she said NO if we ask for her help..I love you MAK!!!!
thats my dad with us..Mr. Johny Weiss Engkamat , my bro carlos and me...that was during gawai this year..my dad is a big man in our longhouse. Every gawai, ppl in the longhouse will be waiting for him to come back. My dad go many relatives..ermm, i think one longhouse majority is my dad's relatives..so elder lady , we address them ...indai and apai for elder man..My dad is a strong politician. Been with BN for so long..I remember when we were still young, dad used to work in Brunei. Seldom see him, only mum took care of us. Dad most of the time, very fierce and some times funny. Very famous in our family , coz he also love to help ppl..funny thing bout dad. Everytime the phone rang, very early call la...that means someone died la..and he has big responsibilities in this..i dont want to reveal..(long story ..hahahha)....anyway, my dad is my hero. He is a nice man, and he worked so hard for the family. Abak, I love you.....

And finally, introduce to u all..my bestfriend...Laura aka KIKI...ahaks!!! we have been good friends for years..since we were still in primary school..went to the same school until form 6, and 97 i continued my diploma in kuching ..then, she also went to Shah alam to do her Bachelor Degree..She is very nice and understanding...very funny and sometimes can be very strict , still bachelor..and i always asked her to find..orang putih' ..and she always has her strong answer..which i do not want to tell u in here....haha., well...I should thanked for so many things she did to me, She has been helping me a lot..whenever im down..she is always there for me..even imagine to bring me main ski to australia some more...if she marry rich man...ermm, GOD Speed!!!!Thanks friend for always being there for me...

Im so happy to have these people around me...there are more which I cant list it here..plus no picture oso..hehehe, ..see you in next blog....chow!!!!

Blue and shiny July.....

Hey,..I guess this month is one of the blue month in a year..every year i have blue month , not only blue monday..many thing happen to me this month which carries heavy thought for me....ermm, i guess many of us went through all this rite...

july, started me with the lost of my precious belonging. which me and my hubby really love it though many problems datang...from this thing..i have learned so many thing in life while im alone here in Miri. without my family around..up and down in life settled by ourself. Glad that I always manage to deal with it,..okay back to this ...Blue July, I was talking about..fuh, u see that car above..thats our beautiful Subaru. well, living in Miri is not as good as we thought before..even "sama bangsa" also can do bad things to us ...its all about Money....everywhere we go, sure got problems but this time its too big to settle ...we were being cheated and someone took the car from us , really...

Be careful for those who just moved in to Miri, not only gangsters are dangerous here..but nice looking man who looks like a good father also ..not so bad la the impact to us if we "terjebak" with them ..habis..hahhaha..sometimes for me its not only sad but something that God wants me to learn from it..so , always believe that anything happen to us, always got a reason for that..

after my blue monday,...hmm, I got an offer to work with one of Business School Centre here in miri. Tho, the pay is little but i say..its Ok, hehe...coz I have 2 jobs ..and okay la..and 2nd week of July, My MIL coming down from Kuching to take care of my lil Keith..so Keith so happy to see his "nenek" coming to see him. so exited to wait for her at the airport..and that week we spend it going to fun places like ...in the picture..see how happy my lil Keith ..having fun with his group of ppl he loves to hang out with..and opps..its all girls..hehhee...handsome one , must mix with girls..so that when he grow up..he knows which one to choose..wakakkaka!!!!


see, there Keith and his nenek..Keith very close my MIL. She took care of him since born and he stayed with them for almost 2 yrs ++ , then we moved to Miri..and that time nenek only can stay with us less than a week..so Keith really misses her so much, I hope my MIL can read this..hehhee,


Well, this July brings up and down to me ..first i lost my Subaru and then, I got a new job...and my MIL coming down from kuching to stay with us eventho , i do not know until when she stays..but I really thanked her coz she wants to come down to Miri to take care of Keith..
like i said, ups and down happen in our life..just trust in HIM, anything happen to us bad or good..its always a reason behind it...just keep calm and be patience for i believe, who is patience and kind will receive HIS blessing ...CHEERS!!!!!!..


My prayer goes to Doris ' family for the lost of her bro in-law...May He Rest In Peace..Amen!!!

I Can Dream....

hai all.
since this is my first blog, i would like to share with u one of the best song i listened to this year..by celine dion and elvis presley. American Idol ..the week of idol gives back..really inspire me a lot. to see all the celebrities work very hard to help the needy in America..how i wish we as malaysian and malaysian celebrities do the same thing like what they did in America...Ada yang buat...but not doing it done well..aka hangat2 taik ayam..hehhehe,..so my first blog goes to all of you out there who feel the same as I am now..we can dream while we can..and dont forget to let the dream comes true...

There must be lights burning brighter somewhere
Got to be birds flying higher in a sky more blue
If I can dream of a better land
Where all my brothers walk hand in hand
Tell me why, oh why, oh why cant my dream come true

There must be peace and understanding sometime
Strong winds of promise that will blow away
All the doubt and fear
If I can dream of a warmer sun
Where hope keeps shining on everyone
Tell me why, oh why, oh why wont that sun appear

Were lost in a cloud
With too much rain
Were trapped in a world
Thats troubled with pain
But as long as a man
Has the strength to dream
He can redeem his soul and fly

Deep in my heart theres a trembling question
Still I am sure that the answer gonna come somehow
Out there in the dark, theres a beckoning candle
And while I can think, while I can talk While I can stand, while I can walk While I can dream, please let my dream Come true, right now Let it come true right now
Oh yeah

***one of my dream to have that tattoo up there...I can dream!!!